Sunday, August 27, 2006

Maybe it would help

Okay so maybe a hug would help. I feel like I should reply to what I wrote yesterday. Not to worry there is no serious depression happening...just vague not happy in my life right now depression, you know the normal, almost 30, what the hell am I doing, kind of depression.
It’s just so strange not living my own life and trying to figure out what I want that life to be. All in all, a work in progress. Sometimes I guess I hit the bumps in the road and the feeling of having no control of my life right now intensifies those bumps to the point where I see them as mountains and I’m alone trying to climb up and over them.
metaphor, metaphor, metaphor blah. Whatever, I’m just trying to say that is life is messy, and when you need to work out what the hell your doing sometimes it hits you hard that you have no idea, clue or plan of where it’s going.
I like to at least have a bit of a plan and right now...I’ve got nadda.
That’s why you need to have friends fly in (literally) to save you and to help you talk it all out. Jaret arrived yesterday and I must tell I’ve never been so happy to hear from someone. It was a total surprise and it couldn’t have come at a better time. Ill keep you posted on my life plans, once I come up with some!

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